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On this post I share with you guys one of many essays I to wrote for the Ecovillage Design Education course hosted by Gaia Education. This reflection words arrived to my head after studying a module on Leadership and Power included on their Social Dimension course. Hope you enjoyed it.

The hollow seed

In 1990 the music collective Snap released a Hit track named ” The power ” Throughout the track, the main singer drops the line ” I´ve got the power “.

First time I listen to this track I think I was around 15 years old. It totally blasted my brain… I felt the power all over my body, a sense of immortality that kept with me along the way.

“I´ve got the power!” But what kind of power? Creative or destructive? The power to see the “New” in every day, to see beauty even when drifting through the concrete jungle. The power to accept life and death even when its the death of a beloved one.

While I was growing I passed many different stages. Until the age of 5, there was this creature that was haunting me in my dreams, opening my belly and taking my power way. This dream represented one or two weeks sick in bed. Nobody knew what disease was that. Some years after I did a regression and I discovered that the evil creature that was taking away my life was actually me. My eyes, at that age, we’re seeing patterns of destruction and misused power that somehow I couldn’t process at all. I felt a stranger in this world, and I had still at that age strong memories of a better place from where I was coming from, deep Universe memories. I was sabotaging my life. Rescuing me from the pain that was at play in this global theater on earth. 

Love kept me here. My father and mother´s love was so immense that slowly the creature stopped coming and I was finally ready to grow and to become an agent of cultural transformation.

I saw how my family was dealing with power, first dealing with poverty, and slowly earning life and getting a bit more conditions for us. What most impressed me was how my father was dealing with money and power. Honesty and compassion were principals in which I was raised. Principles that I still nourish inside of me and I hope I can pass them on to my daughters.

As life was coming in my direction and time was guiding me through different episodes I could also feel the Power of destruction and separation. The Power to start projects and be dominated by then. To lose the track, to lose best friends in order to follow the vision and mission of the project. 

Waves of joy coming from the biggest teachings of life. Elder waves showing how strong Power is. Waves singing my name, telling me to lead with humor, with compassion, with focus, To lead by seeing how great others are.

I guess that I have developed the power to see others gifts and to empower people without hooking them to my energy. I read through my biography that I have the ability to start projects, gather people like a magnet, to dream visions of utopia, to manifest and act in synchronicity with life. It’s quite an immense power. Along with it comes a lot of reflection, frustration, achievements and the illusion of expectations…

What is leadership? And how can one lead groups, or projects without the pre-concept that we have from authority?

For a person that starts projects, that founds the baseline of something easily come the fevers of authority. The suffering of letting go and the capacity to empower and trust others to fulfill certain roles. 

One of my biggest challenges is to find people that are not traumatized by authority and actually understand self-leadership and natural leadership in relation to what is happening and needs to be manifested. We live in such a neo-liberal world that individualism seemed to take over like a new religion. For some people that I have been working with it seems that these neo-liberal values shock with my need for commitment and responsibility. I personally deeply appreciate working with people that are centered and on their own power. Why invite a drummer to play in your band, if you ended up by singing the beats and asking for reproducing then? A drummer must have developed this skill of making beats much better them myself, right? Sure! So when I work with people I kind of expect that they do their part in whatever play we are going through. I really like the concept of constellations of starts, to see groups like we see stars constellations, where each one shines their brightness and all are important in that alignment. That is the power of functional community!

What an immense power a seed has! Even that when we break a tiny mustard seed it is hollow, who could say such a huge creature would emerge from it? My soul is still amazed by the power that earth, sun, stars, water, the moon and the small bee have among existence. What a mysterious power that seems to be eternal. Is it Love? What is love?

Although it is sung in many songs it seems that I still don’t know what is this power, Love. What about love in Economics? Just imagine the newspaper front page saying, “The economy of Love spreads out through the world, FMI forgives Portugal debt and Donal Trump returns some indigenous land to the Native Americans leaders”, and imagine a judge in court saying:

– Sir, you committed this crime because you were not in a state of love! Both the victim and I forgive you for that. You will be doing community work with the elders for one year long.

One day, when Power will be used as the Sun powers the flower and the bee suck its nectar and transform into honey, that day Power will be in the center of an abundant society. Systems will be redesign to incorporate Love,  the Love beyond romantic love. The one that is inside the mustard seed.